My life

If you want to know more about me go to www.myspace.com/jmartz9. otherwise get to reading what ive really come here to say...

Im stationed here in SD and ive come to the realization that im having to prove myself even more because im 18yrs old. People look at me as if im the ships little brother or something retarted like that. When i drop my opinion on something important i find that my audience is unreceptive to my message. They view me as the immature kid who shouldnt be listened to because he hasnt been around long enough to go thru anything meaningful. Well excuse me for disagreeing. what im about to say is a little bottled up, so forgive.
I may be 18 but ive i been through a hell of a lot and i know what its like to be in pain.
I kno what its like to go to a school that hates u automatically for being white
I kno what its like to be hated for being who you truely are
I kno what its like to feel responsible for the dissolving of a marriage, and then witnessing it
I kno what its like to watch the strongest man in my life slowly become weaker
I kno what its like to drive him to kemotherapy because she was to busy
I kno what its like to help her pack, and move away only so she doesnt call
I kno what its like to hold a family together, because im the only one who can nut up
I kno what its like to hate the person who brought u into this world, and then forgive her
I kno what its like to watch ur grandparents argue cuz they are helpless
I kno what its like to feel pure victoy
I kno what its like to love a woman more than you love yourself, but she doesnt feel the same
I kno what its like to leave everything familiar
I kno what its like to be cheated on, and cheat on girlfriends
I kno what its like to be lonely, jealous, powerful, angry, frustrated and pissed the fuck off
And i kno that it is these experiences and so many more that have made me the man i am today. Take it or leave it this is who i am, and im not going anywhere anytime soon.
One love.
J.Martz